Question 8

Since I am following a set list of questions from a writing journal, I will answer each question as truthfully as I can. I don’t blame anyone for not taking a crack at this, and any of the more personal, ones.

Today’s question is:

What do you most dislike about your appearance?

I recently noticed that my mouth is lopsided in photos if I don’t smile. That’s annoying. But aside from that, the thing that bothers me the most is probably my general size. When I was younger and athletic I still looked filled out because genetics are a thing you can’t escape. But since my diagnoses, the death of my dad, all the drama that went with it, and my surgery- I’ve gained a few pounds. I’m slowly working my way down again, but I just feel like a Pillsbury dough sculpture. I’m doing my best to deal with it.

What about you?

Question 6

What do you consider the most overrated virtue?

This took me a while to mull over. As a geek, the tropes and tribulations of heroes and their virtues have always made for good stories. But what exactly IS a virtue?

I googled it and stared at the descriptions.

Petunia Dursley, is that you? Perhaps too much of a good thing really is a bad thing. Yikes.

I mean, I can go on forever debating what the meaning of each of these traits is when applied to common human behavior. Does morality need decency to give it perspective? Are respectability and nobility really virtues in the modern age? I can go on forever. But I do believe that some of these ideas are incredibly antiquated.

Righteousness is great when applied to helping others, but can also ruin someone’s perspective. There are several differing opinions on morality all over the world, and some are worse than others. And the rest of it could just be pretty terms for a stuck up jerk who thinks they run the world.

I don’t know how to answer this at all. They all seem like opportunities for bad decisions to me.

What do you think?

Photo of the day!

We had a party for my nephews last night at Chuckee Cheese. This was the best photo I got all night, haha! The little demon can’t stay still for a minute. My sister will be going back across the country soon, and it’s very rare when we get to see each other, now. I was glad for the opportunity. And to see my other family, as well. I know I keep myself away out of fear of being rejected. But my sister and her family are so wonderful. And my cousins. I was a little depressed when we had to leave. But it was a great time and this photo means more to me than just a quick snap.

Cherish the people who treat you like you matter.

Question 7

Today’s question is:

On what occasion do you lie?

As much as I’d love to say I’m an honest and transparent person, I will admit to having lied in my life. Anyone who knows me would laugh in my face if I said otherwise. Some lies were worse than others, and some lies were not mine to confess.

Some lies were harmless and others hurt myself and others.

But I was young and I learned my lessons when it came to truthfulness and trust. But I still lie. I can’t avoid it.

There are times when I will lie about having done a chore or made a phone call because I hurt too much, or I was too nervous to speak to someone on the phone. I’ll lie and say I feel fine when my spine and eyes are screaming. I’ll lie to my husband and tell him it’s ok that he forgot I needed help with the dishes after I spent an hour cooking and cleaning and my arms want to fall off. I’ll lie to my parents and tell them that no, I don’t have any mental or emotional issues with the abuse and neglect they put me through that resulted with me living out of my car for two years while working two jobs. I’ll lie to myself and convince myself that I don’t need to see my therapist this month, I’ve been feeling great.

But we all lie like that, don’t we? Sometimes it’s the only way we can get through life.

Florida Supercon 2018

We got back in yesterday from spending Thursday and Friday and Supercon. It was really fun, and a truly unique experience. I took so many pictures, and walked to the point where I’m still recovering two days later. We saw some amazing costumes and met some really great artists. It was pretty gratifying seeing so many geeks in one place- especially in Florida!

Of course no major even with any self respect makes it’s way to Miami directly, so we had to drive almost two hours to Fort Lauderdale and we stayed at a Holiday Inn for a couple of nights. It was close enough to walk to the convention center, but 90+F heat and god awful humidity made the trek a miserable one. Thank you for the invention of modern AC. All in all my watch clocked me at ten miles for two days of constant walking, so if anything I can at least boat about that!

The venue was beautiful, the vendors were varied and awesome, the cosplay was gorgeous, and most everyone I met and spoke to were all so nice and friendly. I met a professional cosplayer I actually follow on IG. Her name is Stella Chuu. I was really nervous, but she is so great. We bought some of her stuff (support geeks!) and she let me take a photo of her. Look her up, her stuff is beautiful!

The atmosphere in general was really great. It’s not my first con, but it is one of the larger ones I’ve attended. In the end I bought too much stuff, walked my legs into stumps, ate too little, and actually met someone who recognized me from my Borders days. It’s been 8 years, but I still get people telling me I look familiar. Ever shopped at Borders? Yeah, that was me!

Here are some of the cosplays I photographed. I’m putting the whole thing on my website later today!

Yes there was a con cat, and it was super chill. Yes it’s real. Con cat mom was super chill too!

And even better than the cosplay were the ARTISTS. Guys, I can’t tell you how much I loved meeting and talking to all the vendors and artists at Supercon. I wish I’d had enough money to buy from each and every one of them! I’m going to be putting photos of their booths up on my website with their info, but here’s a couple of photos:

We didn’t get any autographs or anything this time around. Not enough money for that. But I’m sure at the next con we will! My sister in law was pretty mad though, because she had to work and all the voice actors for Overwatch are at the con!

We weren’t able to get weekend tickets, but that’s ok. Thursday was nice because there weren’t a lot of people and everyone was still setting up. And besides, it’s going to take us a while to recover anyway. I’d rather take the weekend to do that!

Please check out the rest of my con photos on my website:

Question 5

Today’s question is:

What is your current state of mind?

I just finished putting the basic parts together for my cosplay. The dress is completely done. So I’m feeling pretty good. About to sit down to play some Mass Effect: Andromeda. It’s been a long week so far. It’s only Monday! Haha! But I always feel much better when I have something to work on. I have to get myself in gear though because Supercon starts in 11 days and I still have a lot more stuff to get together. I am getting a little nervous. It’s not my first con, but it’s the first I’m going to in cosplay, and it’s also a little bit like a working trip. My camera will be attached to me for two days. I’m scared of approaching people to ask for a photo. I’m sure I’ll get over it, but ugh the shyness is even more hard when you’re an adult! Hopefully no one will notice how absolutely awkward I am and I will come across as a competent photographer and nerd! So, excited and nervous is probably how I am right now. It makes a nice change from the never ending anxiety. Kick that in the butt cuz the con is coming!


How are you guys doing? How are you feeling today?

Question 4

Today’s question is:

What is your greatest extravagance?

I was originally going to say my nails. I do them myself and change them every week. But honestly, I don’t spend a lot on them since I don’t go out to get them done. My ‘extravagance’ is probably all my crafting supplies. I have everything from soap making ingredients and molds, to sewing, and metalsmithing tools. I’ve probably spent thousands of dollars over the years on all my fabric, paint, crochet hooks, metals, and ingredients. The hall closet is full of these things, and I can multitask with the best of them. In fact I was looking at an unopened box of 10lbs of parasoy wax, wondering if I should make some candles today. I didn’t as I decided to work on editing some photos instead (Sony a6000 camera also part of this deal, I think. With assorted lenses).

I guess if I wanted to open a handcrafted art shop, I could supply all the stock on my own at this point!

From left: My sewing machine, queen bee bath bombs, sunset photo of the Palmetto highway, my birthday cake I made myself (and yes the brain IS all cake), and wax clamshells I made with Sailor Moon molds.

What is your greatest extravagance?